I’ve always been an incredibly nostalgic person.

Today however, marks the first time I’ve ever called myself a ‘nostalgist’. (The main reason being that I just found out it was an actual derivative of the word nostalgia. Nice.)

My sentimental longing for past experiences started at a young age. The first film I remember properly watching was The Little Mermaid, which was released way before I was born. The film is of course, an absolute classic. It was always playing at home, on a VHS Tape (which I still have!) and Ariel was everything to me. She sang, she dreamed, she fell in love. I really felt that I was a part of her world, no pun intended. I was a four-year-old obsessed with a film released nine years ago. I loved it so much and I was already nostalgic about it. As I got older, I daydreamed about actually being there; in the late 80s, sitting in the theatre with popcorn, experiencing the latest animated Walt Disney classic along with everyone else. To this day, I’m still not over it.

The textbook definition of nostalgia is “a┬ásentimental longing or wistful affection for a period in the past” and “yearning for simpler times”. I feel nostalgic most especially when it comes to film, tv or music-related entertainment. When I am moved by something I watch or hear or read, I can’t let it go.

Evidently, it’s hard for me to be present or mindful on a daily basis. My mind is always somewhere else. If I’m having a conversation with someone, I’m definitely linking their ideas to things I’ve learned from a movie or thinking of relevant lyrics from a song, and eventually I work those references back into discussion. I get emotionally attached to things I’ve seen on screen or heard on the radio. I spend more time with fictional characters than anyone else, because I admire and relate to the heightened ways in which they express themselves. My excitement has always been ‘too much to handle’ and to combat being a real life nuisance, I escape into the TV show in my head where I can fully be myself.

I’m fully aware of the fact that I cannot live in a fantasy and there have been times that my love for entertainment has deeply affected my reality. But I have grown and discovered balance in the way that makes the most sense to me. To ground myself, I take the time to appreciate the filmmakers behind every film I watch and the songwriters behind every song I hear. I’ve come to admire the creators as much as their creations. For without these incredible ideas, hard-work and sacrifice, I wouldn’t be blessed with all the content that has shaped me to become who I am today.

Who am I, you ask? That’s a good question. One I have struggled with since the moment I decided to pursue the so-called ‘creative path’. The reason why it’s taken me forever to figure out how to build my first ‘official’ website (yes, the one you are currently on). It started off as a professional portfolio but it’s become a place that hopefully encapsulates all of that which makes me who I am. There are lots of sections here, as you can see. There’s also a password-protected section, but that’s for my most dedicated admirers to figure out!

I truly hope you enjoy the content here and maybe learn a thing or two.

Just don’t get carried away. No use getting too nostalgic.

EM xx